Today

This is the day the LORD has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
 

I have become a bit disturbed that I like certain days of the week and dislike other days, simply because where they fall within my work schedule. I think it’s become ingrained in me, after hearing so many people saying “Happy Friday,” or making excuses for themselves saying, “It’s Monday.” While this mindset might be okay for other people, I don’t want my mood to depend on how many working days or hours there are left in the week. For the time being, what I have isn’t all that bad, and I am lucky to have a job at all these days.

A note on the image: I sketched this back in April when I was at Snow Farm. The instructor was doing a demo in pastel for us and I took a couple of minutes to sketch her feet. I have thick ankles myself, so I sort of admired them.

An Account of My First Experience Drawing the Nude From Life

old man charcoal

Norman, Charcoal on newsprint, April 2009

This is Norman, our male model at Snow Farm. I’ve heard before that one’s first time drawing nudes from life is the most difficult, as there is an awkwardness that must be gotten used to. Well, I was very awkward, and never quite got used to it. Sorry, but I have no figure drawings that I am willing to post!

On Wednesday night Adam the potter was taking the raku out of the kiln and a bunch of us stood around to watch. It was fun, and very exciting to see the sparks and the smoke and then admiring the beautiful designs once they took the pieces out of the wood chips.

When we had admired everything and it was all done, I said goodnight. It was late, around 10 pm and I was walking back to my room when I saw this guy walking up to me with long hair and this crazy hat and a big knapsack. I was extremely nervous as I am wary of strangers approaching me late at night, especially in secluded rural areas. Then when he told me he was the model, I instantly knew I was going to be uncomfortable. (He was nothing like what our teacher described him to be and it turns out that she thought it was going to be someone else.) He asked to see the coordinator but it was late and she was already in bed. So I got Adam and told him that our model was here and was expecting to stay the night and how nervous I was. Then he said, “Is he naked yet? That should make you nervous!” We tried to find the coordinator, but she wasn’t around and then Norman asked me “So where am I going to be sleeping tonight?”

“How am I supposed to know?” I told him. “I’m a paying guest!”

If I remember correctly, I think Adam had another choice comment for me about that one. I was feeling odd the next day, not knowing what to expect. He turned out to be a very interesting model, coming up with very dynamic poses. However, he was a bit too “excited” to be there, if you catch my drift. Luckily the teacher had him go into a sitting pose, so we could draw his back. Nice move!

Designing my Life

charcoal self portrait In general, I am a serious and responsible person. I also tend to be a perfectionist, and perhaps care too much about things that don’t really matter in the big scheme of things. This can be a problem because I feel that I’ve been working hard on all the little things but not having the energy to spend on the Important Things, like designing the life I want. I found this post that highlights what can happen when people get too worked up in the minutiae of their daily life and lose sight of the big picture.

With that in mind, I’ve decided that I spend far too much precious time and energy on time wasting activities, like facebook, email and yes, even reading blogs. I am subscribed to so many blogs that I can’t possibly spend the time necessary to actually read them. This leads me to feel guilty because there is no way that I can keep up. I am going to do some serious editing of my time spent online. I am also going to try an experiment. For the rest of May I am going to post here on a regular schedule, every Saturday and Wednesday. I hope this will allow me to plan my time more wisely.

This will also give me more time to spend on some Other Things, like cooking dinner, going to the gym and working on some of the projects that I have been putting off. I have a lot of art projects that I want to begin but don’t want to blog about for the time being, mostly because they are gifts for people that read this. I have a feeling that decluttering my life is going to be a good thing.

If your looking for some inspiration on this topic, you can check out these resources:

Zen Habits is the creation of Leo Babauta. It features a lot of practical articles on personal habits, financial health and family life.

The Art of Living by Epictetus features a lot of short articles on various topics to do with Life. He is the only Stoic philosopher that I care for.

The Art of Non-Conformity is owned by Chris Guillebeau. According to his own description, “This site features unconventional ideas for remarkable people. I write for artists of all kinds, entrepreneurs, and anyone interested in changing the world. If you’ve ever felt like “there must be more” to life, this is for you.” It is worth checking out.

And finally (because what’s the point of creating the perfect life if life itself is meaningless) I’m listing The Book of Ecclesiastes. This is the Bible’s answer to the questions “Why bother?” and “What’s the point?” You really need to read the whole book to get the impact, but I’ve found it to be very relevant to this era. Plus, it is a fabulous piece of literature even if you don’t believe in Christianity or Judaism.

Note on the image: I made this self portrait while at Snow Farm, on Tuesday I believe. It is charcoal with red and white hard pastels (like conté). I doesn’t really look like me but I really like the tri color effect.