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Anticipatory Anxiety

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Instead of looking forward to Christmas this year, I’m sorry to say that I’m sort of looking forward to when Christmas is over. Don’t get me wrong, I have a great family and a wonderful partner, and I haven’t had any traumatic childhood Christmas experiences. I have just become overwhelmed with it all. I am normally a “medium maintenance” kind of girl, but I have reverted to being high maintenance until Christmas is over.

I am trying, but struggling, to take it one day at a time. My temptation is to become preoccupied with January when all my Christmas art projects will be over, because I have so many other projects that I am itching to start. There is a very big project in particular that I have been thinking about for years now but I have never been ready to begin. I have been on this self improvement kick for a number of months now and I finally built up my confidence to jump into it, but my Christmas projects are a more pressing priority right now. I also signed up for Kate’s Courageous Year e-course partly because I want to keep up my motivation to actually finish this project. Also, I have been reading her blog for years now and I trust her integrity that she put something great together.

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